I think I've lost my braincell.....

.. if I ever had one in the first place that is.

Yikes, trying to type two things at once. Don't try this at home kids. Oh, I am home. Damn. Am I a kid? That depends on whether you want physical age or mental age. Mental age, a definite yes. And I'm practising my trick of carrying on an entire conversation with myself which my friend Daniel a.k.a. Gavin finds hiliarious. Just becuase he can't do it.

Now I'm going to be serious. Or as serious as I can be at 1am which isn't very serious at all. Didn't have time for an indepth entry earlier, so will ramble on now that I've finally kicked my evil sibling off my computer. Happy New Year, or as Snucy would say, 'Merry New Year'! I had a fun New Year's Eve, lots of huggage going on, and I have a special message for Snucy: "He's a wanker: DUMP HIM" End of message. The only thing that would have made it better was snow and in the boots I was wearing snow may not have been such a good idea. Still, it was good. I can't believe 2002 went so quickly - it was definitely a 'blink-and-you'll-miss-it' type of thing. But I loved 2002 because although it had it's down points, it also had it's good points. Indulge a girl who's drunk too much Dr Pepper and let me pay homage to my favourite 2002 moments.

Merc and all the Inmates. It's been almost a year since I started posting at The Asylum and became engulfed in all the madness. I love you. I couldn't have gotten through this year without you all. For putting up with my elf-arse obessessions, for making me a Smoochy Dreamer and above all for accepting me as an Inmate. Big hugs to all you guys and I look forward to our Inmate Sleepover when we can yell, hug and throw vases in person.

Everyone at Planet Helen for being so great, putting up with my sudden urges to change everything around, finding it didn't work and changing it all back again. Thanks for not killing me when I drooled over various LotR aspects, especially slash. And thanks for putting up with my procrastinating. Live Long and Be Lazy! *Star Trek salute*

Everyone who's helped with the GamesManShip Series, notably Tom for starting it all off, Lucy for making me write more... and more... and more.... and.. you get the point and for always yelling at me for my cliffhangers. For Merc who laughed, cried and always asked for the next chapter. Love you guys.

Everyone who's encouraged my slash obessession, mainly Merc, and many other great fanfic authors, including Lady Alyssa and Random Flatmate for Bagenders. Slash forever!

Lora and Marc in Yale - for the fish, the Matrix and the toilets collapsing in our TV studio. Hugs to you guys.

To Eirual, Jai and Dru, The Nightrunners, for writing such damn good LotR fic and making me think it may be possible to write some myself. Keep up the good work.

Now I'm stopping before I go all tearful. If I ever win an Oscar/a BAFTA/an OBE then my tearful speech of acceptance will probably be about the same as this - since I'll never win any of those things I'm writing it here instead. *grins* If any of this has made sense then I'll be amazed. If any of you ran screaming the other way before you got to the end of the first paragraph then trust me, I was running screaming right besides you. I blame all this on my muses. *points at the icon* See? It says it all.

Happy New Year to you all and remember - Smile and be happy and it'll all turn out okay.

Mister Lister SIR!

As you may be able to tell I was watching Series 1 of Red Dwarf on DVD earlier and I've always loved this quote. I just love Lister *huggles Lister*. Even though he's a massive slob, or maybe because he is a massive slob. But what struck me while I was watching about the fourth episode was that "This isn't *slashy* to me." Damn, it should be slashy, three guys (admittedly one's a hologram and one's an evolved Cat but when did that ever stop slashers?) stuck on a huge spaceship, with no female lifeforms within several thousand/million/billion light years and yet I see no slash. I think it's because my muses have rebelled - they have to have *one* unslashy show. It's kinda nice to have just one show where I can relax and not squeak over every meaningful look. Slash is fun but exhausting. So I made a nice fun icon, which could also be considered slashy if you really read to deep into it but nevermind. I love Lister and that's the way it's staying.

Had a massive tidying spree in my room earlier and it's still not completely finished -_- I'd forgotten how knackering it is to have a huge tidy-up. But the good thing is I've finally cleared out the rop cupboard, moved the stuff from the bottom of my warderobe up there and now can actually find stuff in my warderobe. My brother moaned becasue I dumped all his ancient 'Battle Masters' board games and stuff in his room but he hasn't played with them for like 12 years so why doesn't he either sell them or throw them away? I try not to hoard too much stuff like that. Although I hoard the occasional things. I realised while tidying just HOW much fanfiction I've got in folders - either stuff I've written or stuff I've printed out. I must have about ten folders of varying sizes filled with mixtures of print-outs and handwritten fiction and notes. Now that's what I hoard - thankfully a fic takes up less room than a board game. Usually. And I dropped one of my little horse models while moving stuff up to the top cupboard. :( I stopped collecting them about five years ago and wrapped them in tissue paper to store in the cupboard but I accidently dropped my favourite one and he now has one remaining leg attached while the other three are in various pieces. *sighs* Of all the things I could have dropped......

Actually speaking of horses, I just downloaded a background for Brego from the Lord of the Rings site and he has a Western saddle. (For non-horsey people Western saddles are more usual in the US than Britain and are generally more comfortable for long distance riding) It doesn't matter and it was probably more comfortable for the actors, but it just confused me. Would they use that type of saddle in Middle-Earth? I'm not sure why I'm even bothering with this but it's one of those little things that get stuck in the back of my mind and niggle away for absolutely no reason. Most odd.

Anyway I'm off to play around with Photoshop now. I never get tired of this program.