Maybe I've been feeding them too much sugar?

[clo_again]

My god, my muses are running on pure angst tonight. o_O The sequel to 'Can't Not is just ouch... and I haven't even written the Roger-Andy part yet.

Ow. This is what I get for trying to write myself out of a rut.

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[scoobydumblonde.livejournal.com]

Why are the muses going crazy today?!

[clo.livejournal.com]

*shakes head* It's just angst this and angst that, and Mardy isn't helping... I don't know. *blinks* It should be up later, all going to plan though, so you'll see.

[scoobydumblonde.livejournal.com]

*pets Mardy* *snuggles* yay for fic. ;-)

[clo.livejournal.com]

... Wait to say yay until after you've read it. *nods*

[clo.livejournal.com]

Oh! *snuggles back* Damn lack of comment editing.

[scoobydumblonde.livejournal.com]

*giggles* Even yay no matter how angsty. Fic is good. *nods* *snuggles more* Stupid comment editing not being allowed. *pouts*

[clo.livejournal.com]

I still say withhold the yays, but okay. ^__^ *snuggles more back* I know! Drives me crazy.

[scoobydumblonde.livejournal.com]

*grins* Hey, was fascinated by the last one. I'm bound to be fascinated by this one. ;-) *smishes*

[clo.livejournal.com]

Hhhmm, well I think I'm happier with this one than the last one, but my muses want it to end one way and I'm fighting them on it. We'll see. They're usually right, damn them. *smishes back*

Want an extract? *grins*

[scoobydumblonde.livejournal.com]

Eeek! *huggles*

You know I do, you tease!!

[clo.livejournal.com]

Actually I think they want the happier ending for once and I don't think it'll fit. *shrugs* But I've got a little way to go and I'm waiting for them to surprise me. ^__^

*giggles* Sorry. ;-) Let me see...

“Mardy, I need to-“ Andy forces cramped fingers to release the handfuls of Mardy’s shirt and pushes the other American away, trying to move. Cold tiles have numbed his legs; he staggers as he stands and Mardy has to catch him, holding him up. “I- Roger. I need Roger.”

“Andy, you can’t just go back like nothing’s happened. For god’s sake, you just-“

“I know what I did Mardy.” Andy leans on the edge of the sink, eyes closed and head down as he fights to calm his stomach. Mardy’s hands are warm on his hips, keeping him steady. “It doesn’t change the fact I need him. I’m sorry Mar but you don’t get it.”

“Oh, I don’t get it?” Andy knows the instant he hears the rough edge to Mardy’s voice that he’s said the wrong thing. “I don’t get a say, I don’t get an opinion, even though he’s clearly sick or twisted or doesn’t have all the lights on upstairs, I don’t know. He cut you Andy with a fucking knife! Without asking or warning-“

“Yeah?! And what the fuck did I just do to him?”

[scoobydumblonde.livejournal.com]

Oh my... they want a happier ending and you don't want to give it to them?

You... you... you... ARGH!!! EVIL TORTUROUS EVIL WOMAN!!!!!!! I WANT MORE!!! NOW!!! *stomps foot*

[clo.livejournal.com]

It feels... I don't know if a happier ending would feel out of place with everything else that's happened. We've having a minor disagreement over it. __^

*giggles* I know. Evil.

[scoobydumblonde.livejournal.com]

That makes sense...

but you're.... ARGH!!! MORE!! NOW!!! *stomps foot* NOW!!!

[clo.livejournal.com]

Try telling my muses that. *sighs*

*giggles*

Control can be an almost tangible thing when you’re as good at it as Roger is and Andy watches the walls slam down behind the dark eyes with something like awe and a little like hurt. Roger’s got no reason to trust him anymore. It shouldn’t hurt to see the Swiss pull away, not when he deserves it.

It shouldn’t hurt, but it does.

Last one or I'll end up posting it all before it's finished. ;-)

[scoobydumblonde.livejournal.com]

Pffffffft!

*glares* This does not make it better!! Evil woman! Argh. *pets Andy*

[clo.livejournal.com]

I don't know. *ponders* Could work I guess.

I know. ;-) But it's doing fairly well, so I just need to find out what the ending wants to be and it'll be mostly done. And Andy has had a world of angst dropped on him in these. *pets him too* Poor baby.

[scoobydumblonde.livejournal.com]

I don't care how it ends at this point, I just want to read the whole thing!! You're so evil!! *pouts*

*snuggles Andy* I'ma take him away from you! *giggles*

[clo.livejournal.com]

But how'd you end something like this? The ending's going to be the most important part. *sighs again* Which is probably why I *shouldn't* wait until 4am to write it. ^__^ And evil is fun. ;-)

If you take him away, then this'll never get written. ;-)

[scoobydumblonde.livejournal.com]

*pokes you* You had all day to work on it!! EVILNESS!! Is not fun!

Fine, I'll take him away when you're done writing! No more Andy for you after this fic!!

[clo.livejournal.com]

I have been. Word's been open since this - yesterday - morning and it's taken me that long to get to 2,663 words. -_- Angst is crazy. And is, so long as you're the one being evil. ;-)

Then no more Datta - or at least no Dayadhvam which comes after Datta and has a lot more Andy in - or PCtI series, or Bounty sequel... ;-)

[scoobydumblonde.livejournal.com]

You should've worked harder!! *whines* Nuh uh!

AS long as I get Datta, which doesn't have to have Andy in it... *shrug* ;-)

[clo.livejournal.com]

*blinks*

Roger hadn’t even screamed. He’d just lain there, hands limp in the cuffs. Silent. Eyes screwed tight shut. Unflinching as Andy…

He hadn’t screamed.

Seriously, working on that for more than half an hour at a time was like walking on red hot coals. I've been writing it in tiny steps. And it so is. ;-)

*grins* But you won't like the way Datta ends and we'll need Andy to resolve it.

[scoobydumblonde.livejournal.com]

You are so cruel!!! GET BACK TO WRITING!!! GIVE ME THE FINISHED PRODUCT!!! *whimpers*

You suck. You know that right?

[clo.livejournal.com]

Just proving a point. ;-) And I am! *writes*

Yep. I think I'm still working on revenge for all the evilness that went on to get more Halcyon. ;-) You were evil then.

[scoobydumblonde.livejournal.com]

Write FASTER!!!! *scowls*

I was evil then?? I gave you smut fic for Halcyon! Lots of smut fic for it!!

[clo.livejournal.com]

;P


After dangling it tauntingly above my head forever... ;-)

[scoobydumblonde.livejournal.com]

WRITE!

But you got it... and it was worth it and how patient am I being in waiting for Datta?? *pokes you* And how quickly am I getting out RR&R and even though you're not giving me FB on the like nine fics you still owe me fb for!! *pouts*

[clo.livejournal.com]

I am! I am!

Well it's wait for Datta or have me fail uni, which would result in no fic at all when my 'rents take away my 'net. ;-) And I do appreciate how fast you're getting RR&R out but I had the funny thought last night that there's actually a *lot* of my fic out there that you haven't commented on either... ;-) Just kidding. And I can start just leaving 'Read it, loved it, really hot!' comments if you want. I just feel better if I put some thought into them is all.

[scoobydumblonde.livejournal.com]

*pokes you*

Well, we don't want the 'net taken from you... but I am being very patient in waiting so :-PPPPPPPPP And.... HA! Who converted who?? Thank you! I wasn't even around for most of your fic... and I've done fb for every fic you've posted since converting me so there. :-PPPPPPPPP *giggles* I'll wait for the good fb... but like I said, I'm Being PATIENT!! :-PPPPPPPPP

[clo.livejournal.com]

*pokes back*

You are. And when comparing how much fic I've written since we've converted you in comparison to yours... one fic a week is different to three a day. ;-) I hate leaving comments that don't mean anything.

If you're being patient then shh!! I'll write faster. ^__^

[scoobydumblonde.livejournal.com]

*pokes you again*

:-P I will wait. I won't be happy, but I'll wait. And keep track of what you owe me. ;-P

*giggles* This is me being patient!! *whines*

[clo.livejournal.com]

*pokes you back again*


I mean c'mon, in what other fandom could you be guaranteed overnight reviews when you post fic? ;-) Leaving reviews for every single fic I read is a new thing for me. I'll get round to them all eventually.

Very good. ;-) Almost finished. Fucking muses, slipping things in under my radar without me noticing. -_-

[scoobydumblonde.livejournal.com]

*pokes you back*

I know you will... this is why I am being patient. :-P *giggles*

*Bounces* I don't know how much more patient I can be!