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I have nothing to do. Vaguely terrified by the fact that I have nothing to do. Should I be doing something and I'm not? I pretty much definitely shouldn't be on LJ but I needed to flail in vague panic about having an empty desk.

*flails*

...And of course since I opened LJ to say I have nothing to do, I've had someone at the desk and the postman delivering the stack of afternoon post. And when I apologised for not having put the post from the trays into the bags ready because I didn't know, he patted me on the shoulder and said "Don't worry! You'll get it."

I am totally going for lunch and stopping the freakout now. Breathe. Just breathe.

edit: Just realised how much I sound like Manny when he was still an accountant. "Little Book of Calm! Do you have it?! Calm! Need-calm!!" *sporfle*

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You know, if John Barrowman and Dylan Moran took turns to perform alternate nights anywhere near me and kindoftrouble? We would totally go every night. Even if the shows were always the same.

I'm not sure if I should be amused at horrified at this not-so-shocking revelation about us.^_^

Sadly, even though it seems like the entire world owes me money and not the other way around for a change, none of it is in my bank account yet. Dammit. Though actually, maybe it's a good thing that I'm always broke. It means I have to think before impluse-buying.

I was so glad to leave work today. I finish at 5:15; at 5:10, one of the secretaries handed me the stack of letters I'd been waiting for all day, which need entering into the computer and photocopying and generally take ages to sort out. At which point I said sod it and turned off the computer because I was tired of stressing. But I learned lots more today and I'm getting there, by tiny increments.

Keeping a running tally of the money I'm earning helps. It means I can ponder going to see Dylan Moran do the same show twice without any guilt. Maybe slight amusement at how daft it would seem to some people but no guilt at all. ;-) Though I would totally trade one night to see the BARROWMAN (yes it needs caps, no you don't want to ask. ;) )

All insanity aside though, I am glad it is Cheeseburger Thursday tonight. I really need it this week.